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Presently

2011-10-25T16:33:00.000+08:00

'O' level is here. I'm not exactly well prepared for it. Frankly speaking, i'm still troubling over what to do about my future life.

用华文来表达我自己最适合不过。其实，我对华文很有兴趣。但是，我身边的每一个人都对它很排斥。他们只想到纽约去生活，我不想和他们离别，因为他们对我很重要。我的梦想，其实是唱歌和演戏。没有人知道，或许我现在说写出来的东西，一辈子都没有人会读，但是我只想找个地方来发泄。看了还珠格格，我学到了很多东西，也从琼瑶阿姨学到了很多事情。通过她所写的还珠格格，我领悟到了很多事。人生没有十全十美。我以前所想的人生几乎不存在。梦想要自己去争取的。我想要出名，到台湾去发展。不然，想要和张睿一样去读中央戏剧学院，吸取经验，朝演艺圈去发展。一切的一切，都是未知数。我不知道我该如何是好。是选择去追求自己的梦想，还是实实在在的去找一份安稳的工作，稳稳当当地过一辈子。我不想留下什么遗憾，但是，我不想为我自己的决定后悔。我该怎么选择呢？

Hey peeps

2011-09-01T16:30:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged for very long.
I've been busy with school, especially DnT. It's finally over. Deadline was yesterday and all's finally over.

my drawing using the tablet PC

It's the reason why i fell sick yesterday.
Didn't go school because I wanted to complete DnT by 5pm.
Ended up, just after the dateline, my headache became worse.
But i had a lot of fun completing it and thanks to the instructors and teachers :)

Today is the last day of school. Since i didn't go school today, my 'holiday' started yesterday.
Hope this will be the time when i can pick up my grades and make it a good start for 'O' levels.

Last Day Of Being A 15

2011-07-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm at home again.

I didn't go school today again, mom says that i should just rest at home until i FULLY recover.

Tomorrow's my big day, i have no special feelings nor have any anticipation towards celebrating.

I feel like staying home tomorrow instead of heading out.

Perhaps it's because of my star sign, i love to stay home than head out.

But still, i hope i will enjoy myself tomorrow with my close friends :)

Things ain't the same, my clique, my class.
I might not like the changes, but i guess i can do nothing about it.
Maybe i changed, i don't care about my class as much as i used to, but, it's not a bad change.
Others won't understand why will i change this way, they won't even make the effort to ask.
They'll only say, "You've changed, i miss the old you. Why won't you change back?"
I will if i did, you only say so because i stopped behaving the way you expect me to.
I don't see why i should change back, i am still the same to Kim & Marc.
They don't see the change in me, but you all did.
Perhaps you all should reflect on your behavior towards my 'change' and find out why i acted that way.
That's all I've got to say.
Go ahead and think about it.
Maybe that way, you'll know why already.

Another Day At Home

2011-07-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

My dream to visit Eiffel Tower with my dear friends♥

Reported sick again, this time, headed to the private clinic.
Little did i know, the private clinic is fully packed and i had to wait for 1 whole hour.
Did nothing during that one hour other than listening to music on my phone.
Did i mention i kept dropping my number tag and panicked for at least twice?
Guess that I'm really too giddy to even take good care of my own things.

I was diagnosed to have flu and allergy, thus causing it to take so long for me to recover.
Therefore, i was prescribed various medicines.

The trip cost me forty-six bucks! :O
Definitely not worth it, but my mom insist that if i can recover, its worth it.

So, I'm home, doing research for my DNT, and blogging at the same time.
Simply not in the mood to do paper work, I've done most of the work already.
My mother asked me to return to school only on Monday.
I've no idea if i should return to school, because I'm not confident that i will fully recover.

Back To Blogger

2011-07-13T21:15:00.003+08:00

Okay, haven't been blogging for months.
I have my reasons, i'm extremely busy with my studies and have no time to spare.
I'm sooooo exhausted when i complete my work and stuffs.
Blogging again today because i'm sick for the past few days and thus have some time to spare.

Been sick since last wednesday.
Fever and flu on and off, feel utterly restless.
Missed a lot of lessons and stuffs, i'm not even sure if i'm gonna go school tomorrow :\
Hopefully, things will be over soon.

Changed blogskin, URL and other things.
HOPE THIS BLOG WILL REVIVE :D

Recovering wounds being torn apart

2011-05-25T19:05:00.001+08:00

Shouldn't time fade off memories?

Why just can't you all forget about whatever happened?

It doesn't concern you all at all.

Just leave us me alone will you?

Because there's nothing else left to say.

Whatever that is needed to say, it's all being mentioned.

You're not me, you won't know how i'm feeling now.

I am scared, afraid of this person.

一朝被蛇咬，十年怕草丛

I'm not like any other people, it's too hard for me to believe someone after so many things.

There's no point telling me, 'can't you just forget it? it's been so long, just talk to her!'

I CANNOT. The last time i'm gonna say this.

Take it as i'm a selfish bitch and is way too petty to forgive people.

You thought that i will not know anything about things which you all say behind my back.

You're wrong.

I know every single thing, much more than you think i would know.

I have nothing more to say to you all, especially when you don't even have the guts to own up.

Just leave me alone, i will not bother myself anymore with this.

5 more months and i will be free from these troubles.

Nothing last forever.

2011-05-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

A lesson to learn for everyone.
Nothing lasts forever.
Things ends for something better to start, look forward in life :)

Life in school is such a bore.
I've been paying 100% attention in class, hopefully it will make a difference in my results!
Today is the first day of the Mother Tongue Intensive Program, I'm in group 1 with Amadeus & ZhengXiang.
I am super glad that JiaXin & Amadeus is in the same class as me.
Enjoyed doing the tests, though i hate to start paper 1 with Letter Writing! :(

Did both paper 1 & 2 today.
I hope that i did well as we're going to take back our results by tomorrow.
I REALLY REALLY want to get highest in class.
It's not that i want to show off, but this is the only subject which i can score well, i cannot afford to flunk this.
It's not like what other people say, i'm showing off.

Didn't really enjoy the class as there are people who made a ruckus in class today, shouldn't expect anything much from this kind of people.
Oh well, 人非圣贤，孰能无过

Trying doesn't mean to succeed.

2011-05-19T04:43:00.003+08:00

Nothing went right either.

Got back my results today and felt really depressed.

My results were atrocious, they're worse than those tests which i have not studied for.

What's worse? I've been doubt for not studying.

This damn test is the first test which i studied so much for.

Excuse me? Who do you think you are to judge me?

Just because i have been failing my tests, that doesn't mean that i did not study.

You're proving to me that you're an ass by doing that.

Teachers think that i did not study.

The truth is i sacrificed my MATH for other subjects like SCI & LIT.

What have i got in return? A freaking D7?

DnT is no much better.

I promised myself that i must pass all my subjects for MYE.

Do you think that i am very happy with this?

I treat my exams more important than any other things.

I value my studies more than you all, and my results are worse than you all.

Seriously, ask yourself if you deserve that kind of results.

Stop accusing people for their results, WE put in effort. Fuck off will'ya?

Had enough of school.

Not because of school in fact, more like those people in it.

I became another person. I'm no longer the same person.

I've became someone hateful, impatient, self-centered and selfish.

I hate this change. I miss the past me.

It's been long.

2011-05-15T13:35:00.001+08:00

Its finally over.

My MYE is finally over.

I'm still studying like never before.

Because i realized that there are a lot of things i need to know.

I kinda like studying now.

Its pretty fun :)

OH!

Did i mention my latest interest?

I AM ADDICTED TO SHOPPING.

I was surfing those blogshops and decided to get a lot of stuffs.

They're gonna cost me around $100, but i buy a lot of stuffs, so i guess it's not TOO bad? :\

Will update soon if i managed to get them :D

It's like an addiction

2011-04-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

Tuition > home > IKEA > Tampines > home!

Right, it is indeed an addiction for me.

Can't blame me that i feel so 'at home' when i'm there!

Its just so comfortable and i love it there.

Went there with marcus and kim!

Love the food there, especially Swedish meatball spaghetti!

Look at the wide spread of food.

Notice that only one plate of meatball spaghetti is mine, the rest belongs to Kim!

That girl really have a huge appetite.

Marcus is only there to accompany us and go :\

Like a few pieces of furnitures, but only took 2 pictures?

I'm addicted to furnitures!

Marcus left halfway.

Leaving me and kim alone to shop and home afterwards.

Off to my wonderland

2011-04-23T13:45:00.000+08:00

I was feeling really bored at home after revising mathematics.
Finally, mom is bringing me out!
To where? My favourite hangout!

I know right, i'm always going there!

But i feel much more comfortable going there than to shop.

I got no idea too! :\

Mom wants to buy a cupboard.

My mom is so cute that she went to the wrong section for her cupboard.

She intend to buy the cupboard in the bedroom section, but she went to the bookcase section.

Gosh, i inherited her 'blur-ness' :(

Headed home afterwards to assemble it.

So proud that i assembled it myself + my dad.

My dad is so afraid that if i fix it myself, the whole thing will topple on me :(

End product!

People are never satisfied with what they have

2011-04-22T20:15:00.004+08:00

Speaking of which, i have a long wishlist.

I bet its longer than your toilet paper roll!

Let the ball get rolling!

1) Braces

>$3000

I have been saying that i want braces for a very long time.

I haven't got it yet until now.

Its been 3 years since i said i wanted one.

Things just never go my way, I almost got one, ended up not getting.

Stop asking me why i haven't get it, I'm poor -.-

2) Macbook Pro

$1648

I am currently using Acer Presario V3000.

I'm kind of sick of the color BLACK.

Some of the keys dropped out due to my carelessness when i removed all of them to clean it.

Thus, i want a macbook pro!

3) A Pink MP3 player.

I have a MP4 at home.

It kind of spoilt now despite me not using it for a long time.

Maybe it's spoilt because i haven't been using it?

I like this MP3 because its the shade of pink which i like.

But, not this model of course, it's 2008 model i guess?

4) Polaroid

$175

My all-time favourite.

I just find that it is pretty convenient and cute!

But, the price is pretty exorbitant.

5) Mac Lipgloss

$22

I need a lipgloss badly.

Apparently, all of the lipgloss which i bought are missing.

But i'm cashtight and my mom refused to buy them for me :(

6) Iphone Casing

$46.80

Check this out!

Its juicy couture Iphone4 casing.

I need a new Iphone4 casing cause i'm getting sick of my current HelloKitty casing.

In fact, any Iphone4 casing is fine.

7) Wallet

$96.20

I'm using a spongebob purse currently.

Its not so good cos i have more cards to store, but its too small.

It is convenient but it is getting more dirty.

I HATE DIRTY WALLETS :(

I cannot remember what other stuffs i want, maybe when i remember, i'll post another one :>

I'm an expensive kid to raise!

Because, you're never going to be the same.

2011-04-22T09:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WESLEY! :D

Mood was terrible after lunch in school.
It's not because i read too much into it, it's because i'm feeling skeptical towards everything you do after whatever happened.

Went whitesands for lunch with Liangying, Priscilla, Melissa, Azriel & Wesley!
It was to celebrate his birthday :)
Headed over to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe to eat!

Mel ordered Spaghetti!

Liangying & Wesley ordered BBQ Eel Cougee!

Priscilla & I ordered Seafood Cougee!

Had fun having random talks during the meal.

I miss these small talks between friends.

It feels like it's been long since i last enjoyed so much.

Walking home with Wesley is always so enjoyable.

Those talks, i'm glad that i have them.

I never fail to feel motivated to work harder.

I need someone

2011-04-20T19:18:00.000+08:00

I felt distant from my friends.

It seems like there's a boundary which is making me isolated from them.

It's been long since i had a good talk with them.

Never have i ever felt this way.

But i know, it will never go back to how it was in the first place.

Let time bring us to a time better than previous.

School was okay today.

Had Lit test which i'm not confident of passing.

PE was a breeze.

Math remedial was funny.

If only life is so easy.

Every action has its consequences

2011-04-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

Stepped down from CCA today, it was fun!

Went home to change and meet Marcus under my block.
This big dummy reached my block void deck @ 7,
but lied to me that he haven't leave house because i was late.
Super nice of him!
I was late for 40 mins! :(

Headed to whitesands to meet Kim.
She was very upset because of the card issue.

Felt so frustrated because of this.

Overall, i guess her birthday ended up pretty okay?

Homed @ 11 plus.

Thanks Marcus for sending me home! :)

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY DARLING! ♥

I thought i can do it

2011-04-18T17:56:00.002+08:00

Simply so pretentious.

2 period of MT > 2 period of Lit > Recess > 2 period of English > 2 period of Chem > PC > Physics test.

Life in school is such a bore.

None of the teachers came, except for chemistry teacher.

I wasted 3 and 1/2 hours in school.

I'm going to fail my literature and chemistry test.

Atrocious performance :\

Whitesands with Melissa, Christabella & Azriel after school.

Went to grab a gift for Wesley.

Shared gift with Priscilla & Azriel :)

hopefully Wesley will need/like it.

Walking home from Whitesands indeed bring back a lot of memories.

Be it fond memories or bad memories.

Afterall, they played a big part in my life.

Happy 16th Birthday Avril! :)

When everything come crashing down

2011-04-17T21:24:00.005+08:00

woke up @ 9 > tuition > t1 > tampines mall > whitesands > home.

tuition was fine,
i'm glad that i feel slightly smarter.

went to buy bubbletea once i reach tampines bus interchange.
huge craving for it since last week.
headed to tampines 1 for kim's gift.
I'm afraid that she will not like the gift :\

tiffany had craving for longjohnsilver.
accompanied them there to eat.
had an entertaining talk :)

went back whitesands with wesley to check out things.
hmm, he ended going home empty handed.
i love walking.

I never knew people can be so two-faced. I'm devastated because i never expect you guys to be such people. Is it that fun to see me like this? Acting like an idiot being so nice to you guys. I'm too naive to think that you all are nice people. Guess that i'm wrong. Been proven the hard way, its more than i can ever handle. If you never want people to know, don't even do it. Don't bother telling people to keep it as a secret, because it will just leak out to others. I'm disappointed in all of you. I won't be angry. But just so you know, continue disliking me because i don't care anymore. If you dislike me for who i am, its up to you. But mind you, either you tell me how you feel, or simply keep your own opinion to yourself.

Growing up, important part of life

2011-04-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Advance Birthday Darling! ♥

Homed for the whole afternoon.

Have been busy with my blog skin!

Glad that everything is falling in place.

prepare @ 6 plus > downtown > arab street > home @ 12.

Headed to downtown to collect lens.

Was late for 2 hours plus?

Rushed to Arab street to meet Kim.

Got to know her friends.

Rebecca, Denise, Syazana, Kenneth & YangKai.

Was feeling out of place in the beginning,

but its okay after all :)

A Poison Tree

2011-04-16T11:30:00.000+08:00

A Poison Tree
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine.
And he knew that it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

-William Blake